Perhaps, some things are better left unsaid, better yet, shoved at the back of our minds. and we pray, that as days goes by, as time passes, we'll forget bout that certain someone, and the times we've been through together.but realli, its been some time now. say, half a year? yet the memories are still etched in my mind. Wondering how long this will go on, i'm trying hard to let go. I guess many go through this pain but everyone's got a story of their own.. no one else really understands exactly how each other feel.
Sometimes i wonder. are u doing this on purpose? avoiding me coz i like u? i mean thats plain dumb. at this stage, im not that naive to believe we can be tgt. all thats left is just hopes of being friends. but thats obviously impossible, now that u've chosen to act this way. Honestly, i've no idea why the fuck im still bloggin bout u. i mean, didnt i tot that i'd been over u? ugh. guess not. the pumping heart and trembling hands i had while calling u gave away my false pretense. to u, i've got mixed feelings. i like u, i detest u. but mostly now, i realli think its still habit. honestly, its been a while since i had hopes bout u, since i tot bout u. hate how everytime im about to unknowingly forget u, or just to numb myself pretending to forget u, something cuts open my wound, and digs up memories of u.