if u ask me now, i'd say i dunno u. I'd say hello stranger my name is alicia. What's urs? i dun even wanna recall our memories. it sucks. fullstop.
It's been a real free week. There's not much homework in fact theres not even one except amath which needs to be handed in on friday as well as eng. But, none that requires immediate attention, and there's only one test that doesnt even needs to be studied. Even better, we're actually having half day tmr. Like wow. This feels surreal. Someone slap me ; wake me up. I dun wanna get addicted to this feeling i call sloth-ness which im pretty sure other's consider it as pleasure or something.
I'm feeling insecure without homework and empty from tests. Oh my. Somebody call 911. I've contracted the nerd disease. I've become a self-abuser, in love with the feeling of torturing myself. Faints.
I get so sick of bitches who dun even noe that they are bitches acting like they're lil miss nice. Like oh pls. *rolls eyes* I'm so sick of people acting all the time. I'm not saying i'm 100% real me. But i definitely dun act like someone i'm not unless oh well, circumstances requires me to. Its fucking irritating having to face all the drama. Oh u dont think so? Of cos u dont. U're like a fucking selfish bitch caring onli urself. And in case u haven notice im like fucking sick of ur nonsense and all that shit. But its okay. Carry on ur act, live ur way. U've always lived by ur own set of stupid rules that dont make sense anyway.
In solitude again yes i am. I shall remain that way till i get over this stupid feeling of hating people because of stupid mistakes they make which i usually will overlook and pretend like nothing's wrong. But im suddenly at this stage again when i start fussing and finding mistakes with many ppl. I'm a pain to live with now. i dun care if u dun wanna accomodate me. Why shld u? I most probably wont wanna care bout some ap ppl if i were u. So i'd understand. I just wanna shut myself out.
Perhaps its a mistake to befriend people cos it seems to me, the more i understand them, the more confused i get. The more i think i understand them, the more complex they get. The more i know them, the more i know bout their bad points. I'd rather remain as acquaintance with everyone. Best friend? I dun think i need one. I'd most gladly pour my secrets and cry to piglet/patrick/octi. Even better, i could create an imaginary friend and shape him/her to everything i want a person to be. It wont be a bitch, it wont act. It'd just be someone i created, someone i know truly. Damn. What am i mummering bout now.