Thursday, January 21, 2010 4:11 PM
You may only be one person in this world, but you might mean the whole world for someone.
how come this stupid line doesnt make me feel okay all over again like it did when i used to read it?
Inner thoughts:
Given up.
I've given up on lovers.
I've given up on friends.
I've given up on so so many things,
Just to make myself feel more at ease.
I dun wanna live another day feeling paranoid,
I dun wanna live another day worrying for another person.
I dun wanna be that person giving my all and getting nothing in return. No, it aint right.
I just wanna live and be myself.
And i dun care how anti social i am.
U're not me, u wouldnt understand,
How this feeling sucks.
Half day today, like i'd said. Nothing to do, i've basically wasted the whole afternoon. Shall pull up my socks and do amath later on. Anyway im so gonna catch the 5.30pm repeat on chn 8 ; Love @ 00C . That show's ridiculously old yet miraculously sweet.
I've got nothing to do, nobody to do nothing with. What people wanna do isnt what i wana do. What i wana do, isnt what they wanna do.
All of a sudden, my life seems wrecked. Whatever happened to my social life? Whatever happened to me? I dunno why, but i'm slowly murdering myself consciously, and i'm not about to stop. Self destruction. Dont bother with me. Everything people say, everything people do, pisses me off. I just wanna be left alone. And that doesnt seem to be a difficult task.
I'm locking myself in my own world and resting for awhile in there, dreaming of my perfect world where there's just me and me and me. I'd be all happy there. I wouldnt need to care how people judge me. I wouldnt need to care how sucky i am. I wouldnt need to care how i dont have anyone to talk my problems to.I wouldnt need to care how the feeling of being discriminated sucks.I wouldnt need to care how stupidly alone i feel . I wouldnt need to care all the things i do now.
a colorful rainbow in the sky i wanna see;
but tears swell up in my eyes , they blur my vision.
a vibrant color i wanna feel;
but my heart's filled with grey there's no room for colors.
You may only be one person in this world, but you might mean the whole world for someone.
how come this stupid line doesnt make me feel okay all over again like it did when i used to read it?
Inner thoughts:
Given up.
I've given up on lovers.
I've given up on friends.
I've given up on so so many things,
Just to make myself feel more at ease.
I dun wanna live another day feeling paranoid,
I dun wanna live another day worrying for another person.
I dun wanna be that person giving my all and getting nothing in return. No, it aint right.
I just wanna live and be myself.
And i dun care how anti social i am.
U're not me, u wouldnt understand,
How this feeling sucks.
Half day today, like i'd said. Nothing to do, i've basically wasted the whole afternoon. Shall pull up my socks and do amath later on. Anyway im so gonna catch the 5.30pm repeat on chn 8 ; Love @ 00C . That show's ridiculously old yet miraculously sweet.
I've got nothing to do, nobody to do nothing with. What people wanna do isnt what i wana do. What i wana do, isnt what they wanna do.
All of a sudden, my life seems wrecked. Whatever happened to my social life? Whatever happened to me? I dunno why, but i'm slowly murdering myself consciously, and i'm not about to stop. Self destruction. Dont bother with me. Everything people say, everything people do, pisses me off. I just wanna be left alone. And that doesnt seem to be a difficult task.
I'm locking myself in my own world and resting for awhile in there, dreaming of my perfect world where there's just me and me and me. I'd be all happy there. I wouldnt need to care how people judge me. I wouldnt need to care how sucky i am. I wouldnt need to care how i dont have anyone to talk my problems to.I wouldnt need to care how the feeling of being discriminated sucks.I wouldnt need to care how stupidly alone i feel . I wouldnt need to care all the things i do now.
a colorful rainbow in the sky i wanna see;
but tears swell up in my eyes , they blur my vision.
a vibrant color i wanna feel;
but my heart's filled with grey there's no room for colors.